To Good To Be True?
Neutral~~My mood isn't neutral, the thing wont load for me to change it I'm Shocked~~
Well...
I don't know how to even put this..
I'm in shock, but yet.. I'm not if that makes sense..
Well.. I never mentioned this person before..
His name is Ben. I've known Ben for a ... sorta long time.
I met him though a friend of mine, her name is Laureli.
We never really talked, all we ever said was - -
"Hey whats up?"
&
"Alright see you later mmfwcl."
Well, Ben I saw him live one day on BlogTV.com and went into his room, and we hit it off in a way..
Thennnnn.... After a while, things happened, and nothing good either.. T_T
I was told after almost a month of being like this with him, I was told from some anonymous person that he was using me to get back at his ex-girlfriend.
*shrugs* Whatelse is new.. >.>" I'm use to that stuff, I usually see it coming too... But I didn't this time. Which is what got to me the most, I usually see when I'm being lied to, or cheated on.. etc.
But this time I didn't see it, I saw part of it, but the whole using me part I never saw.
I found out why...
After months of not talking with eachother because of that whole drama bullshit stuff, he IMed me at 3:46AM (June 22, 09).
Well, after a little, he had to reboot his laptop.
I sought it as an excuse to just stop talking to me, I was wrong.
He came back a little over an hour later, I think..
Well I just HAD to find out the truth.. So, he asked me what was wrong cause I was planning on going to bed, then he IMed me and all the memories and feelings came flooding back, every time ANYONE brought up him, all the memories and feelings came back and it killed me from the inside out.
He told me that he lied to me because he didn't know how to tell me the truth, that when he told me he loved me, he meant it. *sigh*
I don't know wether to really believe him or not..
Well, he came into my LIVE room on BlogTV while I was still talking to him on MSN.
Everything was settled between us, but a few people arn't happy he's talking to me again, I don't care what they think honestly..
I tried so hard to try to just talk to him to just sort out things and get the record straight.
Finally I was able to talk to him, we talked for a while, till about... 7:something in the morning, then he had to go to school.
Which I'm happy for him that he's going to school, really happy. :3
Well, it's another fact of something like this for example:
'What if I fall into this trap again..?'
'What if he's lying to me all over again just to hurt me.. Bring me up again and drop me like he did before?'
All these things are running though my head, but I should just be happy I'm talking to him again damnit! Right?
*sigh* I don't know what to really think right now..
10:48AM at the moment and I haven't slept all night.. ._."
Oh if you read all though this, expect new photos ;D
MMFWCL to all my homies out there <3
~Signing off~
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